o yay, 10 months of work finally just passed the first stage

yay audition is over, lets hope we get in~

a few people have known what i've been doing... and i think people will gonna find out sooner or later, those who have seen us at afa doing our silly stuff ーωー...

i would show videos but they are either in private or in a "need to register" site.

probably my most fun year.. now i just have my last obstacle to tackle... in the midst of heavy work..

hope teacher wont throw another deadline right before the 2 weeks..

i'll wait til the official video is finished, many people have seen what we are doing, before i talk about it..

ops, there are already videos out there.. unofficial ones.. that have accidentally captured us while randomly filming around

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p7h3WEbjJ3I
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iT-x4lT9rHs

and crap.. one of the comments was directed at me... though i was like beside so many people..






whoa, they changed that much.. 2 years havent seen them... haiz... did they all rejected me, or did i personally reject them through my hate... but still i will still want to be with you all, but you havent reciprocated the effort that i made... yea all the talk about Love... and none of you showed that i'm allowed to be back with you people... more like forgotten about me i guess... thats so ironic..

dolt: "You are so obssessed with your "Lost Souls" redemption that you forgot about the ones who are close"
"You are my friends, but I am not your friend."

hmmm come to think of it... 2-4 years ago, when i'm still in church, there's always talk about Revival... and, while Christianity is gaining acception, you people haven't changed personality wise at all..




talentwise, i guess my art and craft is improving, but i dun tink i can raise my musical aspect much at all, maybe i'm too slow...
Buster needs another repair, helmet still not done.. and my trunks... and my boots... haiz





hey, are you nice up there? it's been so long since i talked to you, or visited you (sorry.. i'm lazy..), it's been fun here RH.. thanks for this year



and yea, i will never flip to the front page or tell anybody about this blog.. i tink only 1 person noes.. and this blog's k0sm0s and the real life k0sm0s are 2 seperate entities, and does not know what the other one is doing at all, so no point asking about the blog's content in real life, because he doesn't know at all.

progress 50%?

left 4 parts, yay

no, havent been tinking much.. too stress.. has been managing time too much lately..

2 weeks left, yay

ahhhh~~~

decisive day coming... time is also running out... hope i can finish the thing...

argh too much work to split time to... have to stop my imas project for the meantime if i want to get school work and the thing done..

wonder if i shall reveal to others what im doing... anyone with a bit of skill can find out since the videos are up...

damn that one person who knows..

nov 10

mood: 80/100

whee fun day yst... havent been so tired for such a long time...

filming is awesome.. though there were some stuff i wanted to shoot but well the results were awesome...

then.. continue to afternoon.. drink coffee and got hyper... argh

can't... move... whole body aches




now.. to convert the videos...





"look around you and you'll see God everywhere... it's all about your mindset"

ok i'm happy today... thank you God

mood: 50/50

thank You God for my mother's mercy on me this morning.

im starting to get addicted to my project... kept spending too much time on it... well gotta rush anyway

until i realise my code is getting more and more messy... like alternating capital and non capital words..

creating functions just to test out codes when it is not structurally correct...

ah well, yay 2D grid based movement is fun... had not wanted to do that but it looks nicer... and will save me alot of collision detection problems...

sat vid recording.. hope i can finish my cannon quickly...








i kept forgetting to tick down my days...

now wad to do without cards again...

so many days lazy to post..

theres so much thoughts but i forgotten them all... anyway

if you are happy, things can only go worse, so be careful when you are very happy, thats when you are in the most danger.

today's mood is 30%

lost my freaking wallet AGAIN. 4 months after i made my ic... crap.
God, please let that whoever person pick it up be a kind soul and return my ic...
God. Please.

the same old thoughts happened whenever i encounted a bad situation:

"Please God have mercy on me, o right i havent been very nice to You lately... but, please, I don't want this to happen again, please let me find back my lost item, please let that person be kind, please let it be at the police post... PLEASE HAVE MERCY ON ME..
ok if things go well i promise i will go back to You... ah crap that was so unsincere.. but still, what can i do!?!@#@#! its not like i can't help feeling like that!! Really God please don't play a joke on me like that..

Ok i know... everything will go bad for me right? I wont be able to get it back. I know. Heck, I give up. I dont think I can change Your decision... if You want to hurt me today its not like i can do anything about it.. ok i give up... i assume for the worse... i dun tink i can change Your mind if You decided to hurt me today..."

and so, i never got it back, as usual.

but still, there were miracles before like getting my laptop back at the arcade.. that was a real miracle i can't deny, the very rare chance of God's mercy on me.. still, He decided i should get it stolen much later...




"but still.... i dont want to go thru this again... please at least i want my ic back... "





sometimes people say you should thank God for the bad things that did not happen. I used to believe in that too, evident from one of my earlier posts.. but now thinking about it, its unrealistic... i mean, i thank God that today i did not die, i did not get injured, i did not get my laptop stolen, my parents came home safely, no one i know die today, theres electricity and food and water and housing for me.. that i still get to have fun today... i mean, its unrealistic.. its NOT natural... indeed when you are happy, things can only go bad... my theory has always been proved correct and i still failed to be on the alert for dangers everyday especially when i'm in a state of succesive happiness... i always forget about the dangers that could happen... even as innocent as carrying a bunch of stuff back, walking, knowing that i placed the wallet in my pocket...





on the slight more upbeat note why im so happy, yea cannon is nearly completed.. its such a miracle... but haiz my cash... anyway bought a whole bunch of stuff today... spray cans, paper for wrapping... more raw materials... i def dun wan to waste time to go there again, and lose another thing maybe... need to work... 4 weeks left...