light post

nothing much special, no, no depressions, jus a light posting only

today was updating my daily countdown, suddenly i felt like scared all over.. this is my life i'm counting down.. isn't it scary? but a few seconds later.. i told myself that well, she has gone there already, what am i scared of..

this countdown is worth it, even though it has jus become a daily routine, and no matter how scary counting down to the end of life is, u cant avoid it ultimately anyway, so im jus putting it in perspective, and when i'm suddenly scared of death, i can remind myself, she's already been through it, so i can go through it too.. so, its good, i have 20030 days to live here before i go to the next place.. and i can expect someone's there already, in fact lots of ppl will be there, not jus me alone.

7 more days to holidays.. will find a short job, save some money to buy stuff, and programme a game...

come to tink of it, 1 month before her birthday, its been long since i last went to visit her.