ops forgot yst... 2 days of dolt

this is by my fren who just randomly said it, but its true

if someone wants a coke and you buy him a pepsi, he don't mind. BUT if he wants pepsi and you buy him a coke, yes it's wrong.

if someone wants a sprite and you buy him a 7-up, he don't mind. BUT if he wants 7-up and you buy him a sprite, yes it's wrong. (i like pepsi and i understand why...)



Thinking about how to go about doing things often raises its difficulty until you actually go do it.

yesterday:
even though it was tiring yesterday and i didnt plan to go, but still i just feel like going and glad i enjoyed it... most importantly i need to improve...

today:
yea cant believe im actually making progress when i try and its pretty fun... but looking at other people's makes me lower my standards...

so, i told 3 people today what i've been doing... these people are no way going to interfere with my daily life anyway so i guess its okay? or i guess i'm just telling them out of pride again... haiz...

will this fail? will it be cursed again? it always happens...

k0sm0s DOLT

Tasty does not equal to hungry. Food fills your hunger at the same rate irregardless of whether the taste is good or bad. And after you are full, tasty food does not feel tasty anymore.




maybe i just like to do things unconventionally (like drawing using MSPaint, playing games using a touchpad, making videos with just standard tools, composing with a DS...) since i know i'm not particularly skilled at anything.. the skills i have are plenty but they always fall right below "good", thus i can never showcase anything much. Thus doing these things using the most free, basic tools available is what I like, hoping that someday these basic tools can become my sharpest hidden weapon. Which probably explains why I bought such a lousy laptop to programme with, since it helps to hone my patience and stuff and keep things simple.

But yet, out of all the talents i have, theres no exceptional ones.. programming is right below the pros, bla, bla, and i always have to train myself using my own methods, while others had a foundation right from childhood..





5am - yay!!! finally my awesome map loader is complete!!! now i can finally start working on the game!!!

k0sm0s's daily one line thought?

The best friends are those whom you aren't very close to...





argh my skill still sucks after i watched the video.. damn thought i had improved...
and i need more motivation to do work

So... after a whole year of preparation..

this has become something quite epic, unusual, anti-cultural, and i'm glad to have become an active part of this crazy weekly activity.

That, even the utter failure of the initial objective is not so much importance to the group now, because we had perhaps achieved it through another way already.

When can I reveal to others what am I doing... This involves my other side of me.. so perhaps for comfort's sake i dun tink so..

Though i still hope to reach our initial goal because this is what we have spent a whole year doing, and in this process we have managed to break through alot of cultural barriers

When a group of strangers asked us last week "How do you all do it? How come my club's people are not as open as you all? Do you all have experience in this before?"

Pretty proud to say "Nope, all of us started fresh this year. We all learnt everything from scratch. And we all started out as shy as anybody but just wanted to learn it. Eventually we got pretty crazy and started doing this in public and don't care how many people are staring at us, because we are pretty sure no one else would be like this and we wanted to be one."

Anyway, it seems that 'fate' punishes me constantly from seeking attention of any kind, I shall be that anonymous person working on his own things...

yay before school

ok yay tmr no school since it is like tues and thursday only... wait what? the timetable is updated? NOOOOOO

so school starts on monday 10am, i slept around 2am... And i worried about waking up since I didn't tell my mum i'm having school today... And for some reason I woke up at 5am... Oh that was a pretty nice and sweet dream... eh wait, lets recall that dream again... o crap why the hell did I dream of that!? What am I thinking!? This person's just a normal friend, no way will I ever get acquainted with her... seriously... ahhh

there were more before this but now I'm too awake I can't recall.. but when I slept again after this startling woke up, I had a dream about my dog suddenly in pain, and it was revealed he is ready to grow his 3rd set of legs (think, a tadpole becoming a frog) and we pulled the hind legs out and it haad to begin to get used to walking with 6 legs.. At no point did I realise that was impossible until I woke up, reexamined my dream, and goodness do dogs have 6 legs?

Argh must work must work must work.